Monday, October 8, 2012
Oh God, I am so tired, more than tired exhausted. This journey to serve you and your people is wearing me out. The life that is seminary is taking a toll on my well being. I am stretched far too thin. I feel like I am going to just collapse or break. This semester is making me wonder if there are enough hours in the day to ever get it all done. Then there are all the emotional complications grief while in seminary is difficult because there is barely time to catch your breath. Being away from the family you grieve with is heart breaking. I am working every day at school or internship. I feel like I can't go on. Then more emotional curve balls come. I am fighting against my own inclination to be a fixer. God who surrounds me wrap me up in your arms and help me to find the strength to go on. Amen.